Yep. Sounds about right for late May. But I can't keep that up. There are two little people and one gluten-intolerant dude in this house who need me to function properly. None of that twitchy lunatic shit.
Today I woke up and I knew it was time to reframe.
Time for this. Time for a mindful shift: choosing joy, choosing to be happy about my last days of school rather than choosing to stew in frustrations about little things that I can't control. Or choosing to fixate on actions of people that probably have very little to actually do with me.
So I spent all day being thankful for those around me. Making a choice to do that. Consciously choosing love and whatnot.
And huh. What a difference. What a better day.
Today was the penultimate (SAT word!) day in the slow march toward the end of the year for my seniors. But it was great.
I won't pretend I want this year to go on and on. I'm ready for it to come to a close. But it's nice to enjoy some sweet moments with my kids before they graduate next week, to make an effort to mark the occasion of the end of their high school experience.
And just like somebody upstairs knew I needed an extra lift, one of my favorite kids from a former class was back to visit me after school. We had a nice, long chat and it reminded me (yes, again--I seem to need to hear it a lot lately) of why and how the job matters. Just plain made my day.
Goal for tomorrow: choose joy again.