Wednesday, January 16, 2013


Photo on 1-16-13 at 7.14 PM #2
My sleepin' hat, and my sleepin' sweater. TA-DA!

Wow, today. So many things. Let me blab on about them all for a minute.

7:30 AM counseling appointment (to finally talk post-Newtown/school shooting-related anxiety with a person who knows about such things). So early, but SO helpful. I love when someone can explain to me how my brain is working... even better if said person is using diagrams and illustrations and not talking down to me. I got kind of excited and first-year-psych-student-y about her using the word "metacognition" with me. But for reals, the longer I do this (therapy), the more I feel like it's not that something's wrong with me, it's just that my adrenaline response seems to be keyed up and different than other people's. And then I don't feel so bad about being me, which means I have less anxiety in the long run.  It's a thing of beauty, really.

After doc #1 it was school again, school again, jiggity jig. The morning FLEW by and then it was time to run (read: drive) home and let Mr. Hurley Derf outside. I've been taking pity on him and his wiry-hair, skinny-ass boxer dog hiney and letting him sleep inside on his chair (that's right, Dude has a chair in our bedroom!) until my prep, when I come home to let him out. He was (as he has been for the last three days) asleep when I got there. We hung out for a while and I tossed a chicken in the crock pot with some Santa Maria seasoning and wine. I hugged m'cats. I didn't take my shoes off, though, or I wouldn't have been able to make myself go back to work.

The rest of the day was pretty good, too. I laughed my patoot off at lunch. I made some minor adjustments to seating charts in my afternoon classes that had major payoffs. Good thing, because yesterday I was pretty sure that I wasn't going to make it until June. The problems that necessitated my four mile "run it off" moment yesterday were MUCH better today. And there was much rejoicing.

After school I picked up Monkey 1 and Monkey 2 so we could go get our flu shots and I could see my regular doc about MIGRAINE MADNESS '12-'13. Sucks to be us, because Kaiser ran out of flu shots two days ago. Thanks a lot, fear-mongering news media. I'm not sure yet how that wrinkle is going to get ironed out, but I'm working on it. Maybe we'll just start wearing those paper masks everywhere (I know... so 2009).

I'm starting a daily med for the headaches tonight, so my fingers are, like, so crossed that shit in my skull calms down. I think (other than birth control pills) this is the first time I've ever been on a daily, all the time kind of medicine. If it works as well as promised, though, I'm really excited about the possibilities of my new headache-free, or at least headache-of-lower-intensity-and-frequency life.

When I asked my doctor about side effects, she said, "well, there is one thing, and you might not like it..." (oh no, don't tell me... omgomgomgomgomg. WHAT?) "the most common side effect of this medicine is weight loss."

I swear, Internet, I almost laughed out loud. I thought she was playing a trick on me. Nope. It kills migraines and it makes you thin. Um. Good thing I bit my tongue. She wasn't joking.

My response: "Oh. Huh. Well, I guess since I know about that as a possibility, I'll watch it carefully to see how it affects me. I think I'll give it a try, anyway..."

Of course this seems like it must be bad in some hidden way I just haven't learned about yet. Perhaps it makes you thin because it makes all food taste like metallic tofu or something. But until I discover that's the truth, I'm willing to soldier on and fight the good fight.

(Joking aside, I'm really hoping it cuts the headaches. Weight loss or not. I've had enough of this awful brain pain.)

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