Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Quickly

Day two was great.  I love my job, I love my routine, I love getting good food and exercise into my day if I plan ahead.  If you would have told me two years ago we'd be this happy or this ordinary (or this married), I wouldn't have believed you.  This afternoon I had a thought:  was all the heartache and sadness in our lives worth it?  My answer to my own question was that I am glad life doesn't work that way.  There's no "putting in time" with pain so that life works out for you later.  BUT I am happy for the way life is flowing right now.  I'll take it.  I'm proud of myself for going out to run two days before work.  I'm happy about my classes and the sense of confidence I have in the routine of meeting a new class.  I'm glad I get to see my friends again every day.  I'm proud of my kids for dressing themselves for school and doing little things like putting away their backpacks and shoes when we get home.  I'm thankful that E got a bug about doing all the laundry before school started and that our kitchen is clean so we can cook good food.  I am still in shock that E has such a regular, dependable job and that Henry is in Kindergarten.  All of these things make me feel good in my soul.


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