Wednesday, June 02, 2010

Summertime Goals

Hurley, getting a leg up on his summer "to do" list.
I realize the very idea of summertime goals goes against the idea of summertime relaxation, but this is me we're talking about. If there was a way to take something nice and make it something neurotic, I'm your girl. Though life has been really fulfilling in the happy department, it hasn't been so good in the exercise, stress relief, writing, creativity, relaxation or overall perceived health departments. I want to set some goals for summertime so I have something to work toward. Here's my goal: No Cheetos. Okay, not really. Maybe I'll think a little deeper than that. I'm nothing if not goal oriented. I have a hard time pushing myself when there's not a reason--I'm not a do a little bit at a time kind of person, just because. I can't read a chapter of a book a night and I can't just go out and run for no reason. I want to get back to how I was feeling about exercise a while ago, and I want to make sure that I'm taking care of myself and my health in all the ways I can--not just in what I eat.

I had to wear my fat pants to E's swearing in yesterday, which reminded me of two things: 1) that I'm big enough to wear the fat pants, which is no bueno. I haven't been in those things in a long time, and 2) I hate my fat pants, so keeping them around was a dumb idea. I don't even like how they fit anymore. But the fat points bring to the forefront of our discussion a specific issue--my eating includes more healthy, fresh items than it ever has, I am shopping mindfully, and I am also indulging waaaaay too often on things that I don't need to be eating. So while I'm being a champ with what I buy, I'm caving in when E wants to buy junk, I'm letting myself go nuts at night (my junk food prime time) and since I'm not exercising one lick, that's all going straight to my... well, my everything.

This isn't just about fat pants. I had some short term fitness goals and because of life happening I let them slip through my fingers. I want to recapture some of what I was feeling when I had a happy run/walk schedule last fall and I want to find a balance of exercise and life that's not going to be overwhelming. I think a few times since January I've tried to get myself back on a schedule and the very daunting nature of the schedule was so intimidating that I just quit. Time to start small again. Time to tell myself that a day spent going for a walk or running only 3 miles is still a victory. See what I do to myself? Only three miles? What a joke. Like not running is somehow better than running less than five. Like going for a walk is a bad thing. Honestly, the whole time I trained for my half marathon I walked two days a week and I loved that time walking. I looked forward to it every week. Only now walking seems like failure. I need to refocus.

Summertime Goals

Family Health
  • Plan meals ahead of time so I can cook each night and we can eat together
  • Keep my produce washed and cut and ready to eat
  • Cross some things off the Mommy Day List (more on that soon) with Hanko and Miss Roo
  • Keep playing regularly with Hurley to wear him out so he doesn't get annoying
  • Continue to feed the kids good, fresh, new and different foods
  • Go camping

Personal Health
  • Run at least three days a week
  • Walk at least two days a week
  • Write every day
  • Read for fun
  • Sleep a lot
  • Lay in the sun
  • Garden every day
  • Make jam
  • Crochet
  • Take pictures
  • Walk around barefoot
I think I need to make a run schedule--or maybe not a schedule, but an idea of what I want to do. I think sometimes I get so hung up in the planning of a thing that I don't actually want to do it. If I could just make charts all day that would be great, but it isn't going to get me actually feeling better. I know myself and I know that once I'm in a routine it's easier to stay in it, but I need to just stop talking about it and do it. I have the resources available to me, I have the time, I know how to get healthy, and nobody is going to come along and do it for me. I know that having some down time for myself and the kids is going to really help a lot with feeling like I can handle it. I know that having E home on nights and weekends rather than out studying for the Bar means I can rest a little easier.

Can you tell I watched Jillian Michaels' new show, Losing It, last night?  So inspiring.  I am also so inspired by my dad, who took control of his health this year and has made some major changes--resulting in some major benefits.  (And it's his birthday!  Happy Birthday Dad.)

Okay blog.  Time for me to ditch those tragic pants.


  1. I swear, everytime I read a blog of yours I swear we're the same person. I could have written this one. In fact, I think you inspired me for my next blog (inspiration has run thin lately). I'm busting out of my "fat pants" and I can't do anything without a goal. I've had a goal for awhile now to run a sub-30 minute 5k and right now I've let myself go so I am barely managing to keep it under a 12 minute mile for 2 miles! Ugh.. anyway, I'm right there with you sister. I am nothing without goals!

  2. I have run at least 5 times a week for nearly the last decade and I've always got some sort of schedule even if I don't stick to it. It just seems to push me out the door. Recently I realized I don't have to push so hard and I'm just trying to love running again no matter what the pace or the time on the clock when I cross a finish line. You'll find your groove again. I'm sure of it! :-)

  3. Thanks for the shout out. You really inspire me, though! Love you,

  4. My favorite advice comes my husband. Whenever I'm fretting something, or doing too much TALKING and PLANNING and not enough DOING and DOING, Joe looks at me unamused and says point blank, "Just do it."

    While I know schedules keep us focused (sometimes) and that structure keeps things tidy in our heads, we can sometimes get wrapped up in that process and devote too much time to planning.

    Here's my two cents, for whatever it's worth: I've found I'm at my best when I just start doing something with little fanfare and planning. Just do it. Before you know it, you'll be on a roll.

    As a goal-orientated runner with Type A Lisa Simpson-esque ambition, I'm sure you already know this.

    I'll be rooting for you no matter what size your fats pants are.

  5. Oh no! I wrote you a long comment and I think it's been lost ...