Saturday, September 26, 2009


Before I recap my ten mile lameness run, I thought I'd share the pic of Addie's new glasses.  Cherry berry Princess glasses.  I totally love them, and so does she.  She looks so old!

Okay, TEN.  I'm still in that place where I can't really comprehend that I can run ten miles, but I did.  I guess I better get used to it, because my first official race, the Sacramento Cowtown Half Marathon, is next weekend. I'm excited.  I can't believe I'm going to do this.

So the run was pretty bad.  No idea why, I think it was just one of those days.  I had to walk a lot, and most of the time from about miles 3-5 and then from miles 7-9, I just wanted to lay down on the sidewalk and sleep.  I don't think sleepiness is a quality you want to your running.  I have no idea why--the heat?  my diet yesterday which included skipping lunch?  stress from work?  The point is... WHO CARES is the point.  It was lame, but I got through it.

I figure this is good.  In dance, a crappy dress rehearsal usually means a good performance.  You get it all out and over before the real deal.  Of course, people use this as an excuse to not prepare before the dress rehearsal, that is not at all what I mean.  Sometimes you have to work out the kinks even when you're prepared.  Sometimes you have to get the nerves and the awkwardness out before you can do your best.  Whoa, Nelly, did I ever do that today.

I could just tell it was going to be a bad one, the minute I hit the pavement.  It seemed like it took me forever to run the first three and I was bored out of my gourd.  Tummy started to act up about mile 4, and I was just not having it.  I felt heavy and tired and LAME.  Luckily I'd planned my run to go right past my Gram's house, so I stopped and filled up my water bottles and to use the bathroom.  Gram also gave me an Immodium, which I believe saved the rest of my run.  Gram could have talked my ear off, so it ate into my time a little bit, but it's a nice problem to have, being around someone who loves you so much she wants to chat it up.  I need to go back when I can stay and sit down.

I'm proud of myself for getting it done even when it was painful and slow.  I had to walk a lot but I did it.  This gives me hope that I'll actually cross that finish line next Sunday.  If I feel this proud about running 10 this morning, think of how amazing it will feel to finish a HALF MARATHON and get my bell.  So excited.

Another thing these small victories remind me is that I have a lot to be thankful for.  My life is so different than it was when I sat down at the computer on January 2 of this year to write my first blog post.  At that time I was in such a dark place--E had been gone three months and we were facing divorce, I only had the kids with me half time, I wasn't enjoying my job or exercising or pursuing any creative outlet.  I had lost half of my extended family with the split, and I missed them all dearly.  Most importantly, I didn't have my best friend.  I started writing that night because I had too much banging around in my head and it was making me crazy.  My world was small because I had closed it off to the people around me because I was in so much pain.  I'm amazed at how much life can change in 9 months.  E and I are happily (and more maturely) back together, and I enjoy his friendship and love more than I could ever explain to you.  I'm writing every single day, and I'm not only setting but achieving the health goals I've set for myself. I know the pendulum of 'life experiences' will swing back the other way, but I am thankful that so many blessings have come into my life in this last 9 months.  I'm anxious to see where we're headed now.

And how's this for something exciting, encouraging, and heart-warming?  E found his wedding ring.  It's been missing since he moved out--or really, we only noticed it once he moved back in and we renewed our vows and it was nowhere to be found.  I've been so sad about it--I even asked him once if he pawned it or chucked it off a pier when we were going to split and said that I'd forgive him because I just wanted to be with him... (He said he had it, he just couldn't find it.)  He found it Friday afternoon in a plastic bag in our closet--in one of the last boxes he unpacked after moving back in.  I'm was HAPPY he found it that I made him take this janky "wedding rings" photo in our hallway that afternoon.  :)


  1. Congrats on the ten miles! That is really, really awesome. Also, thank you for being so honest about not feeling well during the run. It's hard not to get down on yourself when you have a bad workout day, but reading that others go through slumps really helps! I'll be praying for you all week for your half next weekend! I know you will do great :)

    PS. Love, love, love the glasses! CUTE!

  2. Keep on haven't run in a while, and it was stinking hot today.

    It will get better, and then you will have completed a half marathon and can get one of those cool stickers "13.1"

  3. I agree with Annemarie, thanks for being so honest! You keep me motivated to keep going're gonna do awesome on the marathon!

  4. I love Addie's new glasses! She looks so sophisticated.

    So glad you're in a happier place and that E found his wedding band. Nice "janky" ring shot in the hallway. What does janky mean? Whatever it is, I like it!