Monday, June 22, 2009

101 Things About PDawg

Okay, I think my temper tantrum is over... *checks self for tantrums* No, not quite yet. But I've calmed down about the blog a little, thanks to mucho patience and help from the lovely Annemarie at the lovely Brunch at Saks. Annemarie was in one of my first English classes as a student and now, years later, she's ten shades of awesome and she's helping me learn the ropes of basic HTML. I love it.

Over the next few days I'm going to mess with the blog a lot, so if it doesn't look the same when you show up, no freaking out, okay? Not that it's going to send anybody's blood pressure up if the banner is different, but I guess what I'm saying is DON'T LEAVE. I promise I won't be messing with it forever.

Okay, on to this magical post I'm cooking up for you. Basically, I'm just copying April, my sis-in-law, who was copying Julie from Angry Julie Monday, which is also a great site if you're looking for something to read. I now present to you, 101 Things About PDawg:
  1. I got the name PDawg from a girl who was in the first English class I taught in 2002. She made me a sign that said "Happy Birthday PDawg, love JDawg." Her name is Jennifer, she's 23 now, and she's living in Spain. Color me jealous. She's fabulous.
  2. The year after I taught Jennifer, I started coaching the school Drill Team, which she was also on. They started calling me Coach PDawg and it stuck--much longer than the coaching.
  3. I loved coaching my high school's Drill Team even though I had zero interest in Drill Team when I started.
  4. I taught dance for six years at my school, but I've been teaching dance since I was 16, which was a long time ago.
  5. I've never had a boss who was harder on me than the owner of the dance studio where I taught when I was 16.
  6. I am a total introvert, but I love to be on stage and I don't mind shifting into extrovert gear for work.
  7. I love essay tests. It's my chance to show off.
  8. I keep every (nice) note I get. I read them over and over to myself. I savor the words. I hoard them.
  9. I remember painful things very well and it takes me a long time to get over them.
  10. I have synesthesia, which means that I associate colors with numbers. It's a real thing, I promise!
  11. I am not crazy.
  12. I do, however, have Anxiety with a capital A. It's better now than it used to be, but it was really hard to live with for a long time.
  13. I met Gluten Free E in Biology class in the 10th grade. I made him a bet that he couldn't do the middle splits. He won.
  14. I've never done the middle splits.
  15. My favorite movement in ballet is fondue. My favorite word in ballet is ballon. It just feels good to say it. (You say it like baal-lone.)
  16. I danced as an Apprentice with Sacramento ballet when I was 21, just after I graduated college. I was easily the worst one there, all the time. I cried a lot. I felt embarrassed and fat and not good enough every day, but I am still glad I did it.
  17. I want to go to law school someday.
  18. I regret not being the one to stay home with my children, but the choice wasn't mine to make at the time.
  19. I only like orange Gatorade.
  20. Two veggies I hate: bell peppers and cucumbers. I am training myself to like both.
  21. Two things I also trained myself to like: coffee and beer. Oh, wine too. Because all three of those are things that adults drink.
  22. I crochet, and I am pretty speedy at it.
  23. I am not as speedy at crocheting as my Bestie, no matter how hard I try.
  24. I lost a CD that E made for me when he was away at Cal Poly and I still wish I knew where it went. It still bothers me. It was one of the most thoughtful gifts he gave me and I think someone took it without knowing what it was.
  25. I call my kids all kinds of crazy things, Funchkie, Miss Roo, Buddy Bear, Boogie, and Henry Bobenry.
  26. In high school I made up a word--"moogie"--it's what a cat does to you when they want to love on you so bad that they can barely stand it and they rub all over you. Also works for what I do to my kids.
  27. I still have Marmalade, the cat that inspired "moogying"--she lives outside now though and it makes me very sad.
  28. I was not an adventurous eater before being married, but E turned me. Now he's the one that has to be careful about what he eats.
  29. I have naturally curly hair and no matter what anyone tells you, it's not awesome. It's the opposite of awesome.
  30. I am obsessed with blogs, and reality TV. Love seeing how other people live.
  31. I lack confidence, so most of the time I'm pretending I have it.
  32. I wish I could write a book, but I don't have one great idea.
  33. I really really really love laptops, but only because they mean not sitting in a godawful office chair to work on the computer.
  34. I like to be in my bed. Reading, watching TV, eating... it's all good.
  35. I wish we had all the broken screens fixed in this house so I could open all the windows every morning. I love the fresh air. Now I can't imagine how it was that as a teenager and 20-something that I wanted the air conditioner on all the time. It feels gross to me.
  36. I love blankets.
  37. I love quilts.
  38. I love afghans. The blankets, not the people, though I suppose the people are pretty awesome too.
  39. Last year I was a part of a "Stitch and Bitch" club with other female teachers where we got together and crocheted and knitted. It was great.
  40. My dad convinced me to like cemeteries when we would go on family vacations. Now I can't get enough.
  41. My dad also took me to see "Gettysburg" in the theater when it came out, because we had just been there. It's the only movie I've ever seen with an intermission.
  42. I love Star Trek, but mostly only Star Trek Voyager.
  43. My favorite way to fall asleep is to The West Wing or Star Trek Voyager because I know them so well I can turn my back to the TV and close my eyes and still know what's going on. They are both comforting and familiar to me.
  44. I loved Deadwood and Rome. E and I signed up for HBO for the first time when Rome was on, just so we could see it.
  45. The single greatest thing that came into my life when I had Addie (besides Addie) was satellite TV.
  46. I love planning what I am going to teach way more than actually teaching it. There is something that excites me about trying to figure out the best way to teach something.
  47. I put off reading Gone With The Wind for so long because I thought it was a stupid romance. I regret that. It's an amazing book.
  48. I unabashedly love the Harry Potter series.
  49. I am obsessed with I listen to it all the time, mostly on the New Age Instrumental station.
  50. When I listen to the radio in the car, it's mostly talk radio. I flip around so I hear a variety of perspectives.
  51. I learned to drive a stick shift in E's 1954 Ford Customline sedan.
  52. I almost died on my birthday in 1997 in E's 1954 Ford Customline sedan. Near-miss with another car. Scary.
  53. I am certified to SCUBA.
  54. I love homemade Chex mix. Must be homemade, but the store-bought is about 40% as good.
  55. Every summer I make jam.
  56. My sister and I have a saying--WWGLD--What would Grandma Lila do? Lis is better at doing it than I am, but GL is pretty darned amazing.
  57. Things I cook really well: lasagna, meatloaf, chocolate chip cookies.
  58. I have a hard time believing that people really do like me.
  59. I only ever dated three guys--I'm married to one now, one is one of my best friends, and the other one (who was a friend's brother) I never see. Wow, that was a good story. That was way more interesting in my own head.
  60. I've been running since April and I am still waiting for it to stop hurting.
  61. I am really proud that I've been running since April.
  62. I have barely spent any money since being off for the summer.
  63. One summer, two years ago, I watched almost 50 tearjerkers. It was great, and they are some of my favorite movies.
  64. I love french onion soup.
  65. I love Christmas, Disneyland, candy, and presents like I am eight years old.
  66. I have the most amazing, beautiful, funny, and intelligent children you'll ever meet. I am also kind of ashamed that I didn't think to write that until number 66.
  67. I'm glad that E and I have weathered all our struggles. It makes us mean something.
  68. All the struggles that E and I have dealt with are also still REALLY HARD for me to deal with. Sometimes I'll wake up and I'll just know I'm going to cry about it. It's just how it is, but you move forward.
  69. I just started watching LOST and it scared the pants off of me because I'm pretty afraid to fly. I don't think I let on exactly how afraid I am because I don't want to cause a scene, and I'm not afraid enough to let it keep me from going anywhere.
  70. A lot of my fears I think I get from my mom. Bears, heights, cliffs, etc etc etc. I have very clear memories of her white knuckles in situations that would involve those things.
  71. I also think I get a lot of my emotionality, caring, and lessons on how to be an amazing mother from my mom.
  72. All I got from my dad was this serious face.
  73. Just kidding Dad, I got my love of history, logic, arguments (mostly winning them) and using words for power. And this AWESOME SENSE OF HUMOR.
  74. My dad and I have hand signals. When he would see me dance, he wouldn't clap. He'd lift a "thumbs up" into the sky. I'd always look for it when I performed. We also have a series of signals for "You're a big poop." That one was good in church.
  75. Lis and I fought like crazy as teenagers, mostly over how she would take my clothes and then keep them forever. And then this one time she did something that was so amazingly gross... but I can't talk about it here. Only E and her husband D know about it, and that's as far as it goes. Suffice it to say, if you only knew!
  76. For an English teacher, I don't read very much during the school year.
  77. A lot of times, headphones hurt the insides of my ears.
  78. I have a big head. Not ego-wise--I really have a giant gourd.
  79. I love shoes. They make me feel way more stylish than I really am.
  80. I want more babies, but E is pretty much done. This is hard.
  81. I want E to settle into something career wise and be happy. I hope this happens sometime in the near future.
  82. I get my feelings hurt by students all the time--mostly when they make fun or don't appreciate things.
  83. I think I'm much tougher than I used to be, because of my job.
  84. I am really bad at taking roll at school. I maybe remember to do it one day a week. Don't tell anybody.
  85. I really wish we traveled more than we do.
  86. I wish that when people tried to surprise you, it didn't involve lying. Lying makes me uncomfortable.
  87. I love technology and I don't see it as something "dangerous" or a waste of time like many of my colleagues. I think it's like anything else, it's all in how you use it.
  88. I am running out of things to say. That's a first.
  89. I still have my French-English dictionary from college because it was expensive. For some reason though, I sold back my complete works of Shakespeare. It was missing a page from King Lear, though. I had to do a presentation of a scene and I couldn't find an open copy machine so I tore it out. I love King Lear, so I kept that scene. (It's the one where the King is asking his daughters to tell him how much they love him and Cordelia breaks down). I always liked the name Cordelia, but E hates it.
  90. I thought Henry was going to be a girl. I was completely sure. Nope. When I found out I was having a boy, I was scared to death.
  91. I have to look in cookbooks all the time for stupid things like how long to boil an egg.
  92. I can only carry my purse on my left shoulder. I have scoliosis, so it doesn't feel right on the right side.
  93. I wear a size 9 shoe. It was an 8 before I had kids.
  94. I love Coca Cola, lattes, and frozen yogurt.
  95. I didn't belong to anything, do any sports, or talk to anyone in high school. My students have a hard time believing this now.
  96. I wish I had a housekeeper.
  97. I love Paul Newman, Steve McQueen, and Robert Redford.
  98. I also love Detective Stabler on Law and Order SVU.
  99. I feel like I need some time off from working, even if we don't have more kids. Not sure if that's reasonable, but it would be nice to let myself get caught up with family.
  100. Being a single mom last year when E and I thought we were going to divorce was the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. It was scary and lonely and overwhelming. It was rotten, but I did it, and now it is better. Marriage for me and E is always going to be hard work, but nothing near as bad as being apart. I'm glad we figured that out.
  101. I am happy. I am really, really happy.


  1. About being afraid to fly. See the library of articles on this at

  2. Love this! Oh, and I don't like bell peppers either! Just can't do them....yuck!

  3. Totally remember #52... just talking to B about it the other day because Grease was on TV. Weren't we on our way back to your house after the play?

  4. Come on, you know that reality TV in no way represents how anyone, ever, really lives.

  5. I'm going to have to write you an email to tell you all the things I agree with/do to/remember. It's funny.

    And I always thought I was the only one who's ears were hurt on the inside by earbuds. I have teeny ears (yet I have great hearing).

  6. yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah #1 PDAWG!!!! hahaha awesome. the name better stick. its the best one yet.

  7. I randomly just read through a ton of your blogs (which is probably a little weird since you only recently added me on facebook) and I really liked this one! #32 made me smile because whenever I read your blog I always think "I would totally read this if it were a book"! You should totally go for. You write about things that most people probably go through and are way too scared to admit. BTW-tomorrow morning I am either going for a jog or dragging myself to cycling class at calfit thanks to you :)